Why am i so lazy and hopeless...

Suddenly, i felt so left out after hearing wat Zhi xian had said to me in the afternoon. Haishx. I have the worst result for English among my friends le. She exclaimed that Kerrin's English had improved a lot which i dun. How can i improved my English?! My sentence structure is just atrocious. But how to polish up! My English has always been so bad and i had a limitation of vocabulary. So there's no way that i could improve my English. And i do not interest in any of the Science. So dun expect me to have good grade for my studies. I just dun have any motivation to study. Haihsx. Wonder who have the ability to urge me to study at the end of the year. I am so obsessed with comic... Neither do i wanna to drop to normal nor retain for another yr. Haishx. Even if i can made it, i dun wanna to have a dreadful L1R5 which i had it during the Mid-Yr examination. I just cannot write in proper English. Out of sudden, i am so aggrieved about my studies. Haihshx.Is my instinct warning me to be serious about my studies? Haishx. I think i will just forget the whole matter later on. Haishx. I am so pessimistic towards my studies. But i am optimistic about my current lifestyle....